Name Change~

I haven't blogged in a long time. My divorce is final in one week. I decided to take back my maiden name when I filed for divorce. I thought about changing my blog title but couldn't come up with any ideas. So I am reaching out for some assistance. Please leave a comment with your suggestion. I would like to offer a prize to the winner but I am broke so recognition by name will have to do...Ha ha! But your suggestions none the less would be greatly appreciated. Here are some photos for inspiration.

My Family!

Tonight as I sit here and think of something to blog about, I get choked up with love and sincere gratitude in my heart. Tears come to my eyes and I am completely taken over by emotion. My family never ceases to amaze me with the love and compassion they have for me. No matter how mean I am or how distant I can be at times, they continue to be there for me. At times I don't understand why they continue to do this. But I am so blessed that they do. Never in my life have I met or will meet better people. My family is my whole life and I love them with everything I have.
They are always there for me in my time of need. To laugh with, love me and pick me up when I am down. My previous post I talked about how hard divorce can be. Words can't even begin to describe how hard it is. But then you have this incredible group of people who would do anything to see you smile again. People who are there to help you through the hard times even if that means their needs come second to yours. This week every single member of my family has shown selflessness and helped me.
Dad and Aaron, Thank you for fixing the explorer, taking time and money to repair my car.
Adri and Brett, Thank you for being open to the idea of watching my boys so they don't have to go to a miserable daycare where I don't know what the hell is going on.
Zach and Kelly, Thank you for letting me drive Eleanor (08 Mustang) all week while my car was out of commission. I LOVED IT!
Audrey, What can I say, THANK YOU, you are such a good friend to talk to and help me through this hard time since you have been there. And THANK YOU for making such a risky decision with me.
Melissa, Thank you for calling me with a solution to the broken part on my car and even from miles away and tied up with your own issues, stopped what you were doing and expressed your love and concern for your bigger sister.
Mom, wow, where would I be without you and your love and friendship. Several times this week you have come to me while I was in tears, put your arms around me and cried with me. All while trying to console your hurting daughter. Sometimes even as adults, we need our parents to put their arms around us and tell us everything will be okay like when we were younger. I love you!
I love each and every one of my family members and stand amazed at the love we all share and how close we are. My siblings are truly my best friends and the coolest people I have ever met. That definitely says alot about our wonderful parents and how we were raised!

Blah Blah!

I haven't blogged in a really long time. I guess nothing to exciting to blog about. Jesse and I are in the middle of a divorce. Never in my life did I think it would be this hard. The emotions you go through during a divorce are absolutely insane. One day you could be feeling great and the next day, the next minute you can feel completely alone. It's very stressful and it has been really hard for me. I had to quit watching Mikayla so I could go back to work full time and now my own kids go to a baby sitter. Where did everything go so wrong. This is not how I imagined my adult life. I know that in my heart I have made the best decision for me and my kids. But at the same time, its kicking my ass too.

My Babysitting Skills!

For those of you who know me, I have babysat my niece Mikayla since she was four. She is like my own and she has truly grown on me over the years. I would be really upset if I was no longer able to have her everyday. Her eagerness to please and help out with the boys is a blessing and I love her to death.
With that being said, she occasionally has to be put on time out and we have tried several places. None have worked until now...

Just kidding! She found this spot on her own and she is never put in time out. Oh the cleverness of Kaykie!

Easter!

Easter this year was a little different and difficult. Dad was out of town on business, Lulu is at school, Zach is on a road trip with his mustang, Kelly and her kids ate at her moms, Jesse wasn't here, and my kids only got to come for the Easter egg hunt. The Easter dinner table is usually crowded with food, laughter and alot of commotion.

This year, the table sat only 9 people compared to our usual 20. It was hard on my mom to have my dad gone. She commented several times that her and my dad have not spent an Easter away from each other in their 39 years of marriage. I know it was hard on her and my dad to be away from each other.

Besides so many family members missing from the dinner table this year, our family celebrated with the traditional Easter Egg Hunt for the kids that mom puts so much time and effort into. My sisters and mom made a yummy meal that at least the 9 of us got to sit and eat and laugh!

No matter how many empty chairs are at the table, there are "No Empty Chairs". We missed all our family members that couldn't with us today. But believe me when you read this, there is no other family as close as ours no matter how far apart we are. We love unconditionally, laugh, cry, joke, care and enjoy each other like no other family I have ever met. I am so very blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. Like my mom says,"Happy Purple Egg Day". Thanks mom for teaching me and my siblings that family is the most important thing in life.